halloween party

he came home at 9 in the morning drunk and looking stupid. agh… i hate it when i can’t ride his mood. i think everyone is bound to be annoying and intolerable when they had so much to drink. is that right?

anyway, he attended their office Halloween party. i don’t know… i just sometimes wish i had parties to attend and appointments to meet. i hate having no social life at all… i mean, at all. but i am surviving, i think. i’m gonna enroll next week so i’m gonna be busy with school stuff again soon. which i hope would take me out of this “social-life” issue on myself. i am wondering now if i would be able to make real new friends again at school. or am i really too old for that kind of stuff. girls at school often talk about boys, if not always. which i can’t seem to have any opinion at all. waha, not that i am not interested or anything… but it just doesn’t appeal like it used to anymore. maybe i am a grown up after all. oh, i hate to be called a grown up. i hate the idea that i am old. i sometimes flinched at someone calling me “ate” at school. although i must admit it sometimes gave a warmth feeling when somebody looks up to me as an elder. hehe. but it often solicited a role model image from me. which i can’t be confident to give. but am willing you see…

anyway, happy halloween to all…