i just...
...don't want to hurt you.
I've always thought, with regards to everything,
that it was better for me to just hold back...
...restrain myself rather than risk the relationship falling apart;
that's how i've lived my whole life.
And in fact I thought I'd done pretty well for myself that way,
and I was satisfied with it.
But ever since I met you,
I haven't been able to bear it anymore.
... My family knows sides of me that you don't.
And I can't help wondering if maybe you would go away from me if you found out about them.
I think I might do anything to stop you.
I'm afraid.
I don't want to restrain you,
but at the same time I want to lock you away.
Hurting you is the one thing I never want to do.
But that's not the reality.
I'd rather we parted ways now,
than have you despise me and leave me behind one day.
My biggest fear is losing you.
